gonna fail out of skewl :(. why can't it be tuesday or hell this time next year?

i just want security. and I don't know who how to ask for that, and im afraid you will say no or just do it to make me happy. i want you to want it to. which is improbable

im just so afraid you will hurt me again.

i wish i wasnt alone.

packing list

CELL PHONE CHARGER

COMPOODER AND CHARGER

BIRTH CONTROL

6pairs of panties

3 bras

3 pairs of pants

2 skirts

1 dress

shoes

socks

hoodie

jacket

sleeping wear

shampoo/conditioner

BRUSH

makeup

To Do

Tuesday 11

Call Hopkins

Take movie back to TR

Work on pagan book

Advisor

weds 12

work on pagan book

advisor

thursday

open advising meeting

work

book

friday 

take lindsay to airport

go to cog psych

work

pagan book

saturday

work

write pagan report

sunday

meeting

work

review report

Monday

start getting ready for trip

YES WE CAN

depressed.fuck. getting to the point where its almost impossible to hide it. i just want to not exsist anymore. im dying on the inside and I can't tell anyone. i feel so alone.