Two Years

Over the past two years I have changed so much, but I feel like I have not made any strides toward getting my life into track. His status made me cry this morning cause I identified with and, and because I am afraid it had to do with me since we met two years ago this coming weds. I wonder if he thinks like I do sometimes about how different his life would be if he had not met me on that fated bus trip two years ago. I thought about it and I do not regret meeting him, if I could go back in time I probably would change how I handled our whole situation but meeting him no. He has been a catalyst for change in me the past two years:
In the past two years:

I fell in love for the first time
Lost my virginity
Transferred Schools
Truly disappointed my parents for the first time
Got 2 tattoos and 7 piercings
Dated people for the first time
Had my first heartbreak
Held a job for over a year
Changed majors
Made friends
Lost friends
Figured out what I wanted to do with my life, just not the means to the end
Became an Aunt
Lost most of my illusions about the world
Became more political
Gained self esteem
Gained self worth
Became stronger
Got diagnosed with Bi polar disorder
Been heavily medicated
Almost died cause of said medication
Took self off medication
Experimented with sex, drugs, and alcohol
Made a best friend
Had the definition of soul mate radically changed
Wondered if I am actually with the person I am meant to be with forever
Grown Up
Regressed
Lost my faith and found a strong sense of spirituality
Stopped trying to actively kill myself
Started Smoking
Stopped Acting
Stopped playing music
Stopped living
Started waiting

I need to start living again.